3 days until Surgery Day

I really can't wait to get rid of the pain and be able to live life again. I haven't done much of anything lately. But I'm sad and scared at the same time because I'm scared to face the facts that they might have to take everything :(   I know god has a plan for me but its so hard to face the facts that as of Wednesday the fertility treatments could be no more...no more chances....no more praying and keeping my fingers crossed every month...gone just like that in my sleep and not knowing until I'm back with it....So I'm praying and hoping that they can leave at least one ovary and the uterus