Thursday, February 2, 2012

A Year Ago Today

A year ago today I was starting my first dose of Famara. Last year my hope was that this would be my last treatment and that our long awaited miracle would be on its way. I prayed for days that this was the answer to our prayers we had waited so long for. The treatment ended with bad news and it did not  work out.  I hoped and prayed that next year would bring me different news. Now a year later......

Today I receive my 4th injection of Lupron Depo only 2 more to go. During the last 4 months we have not been able to try and we have another 3 to go before we can officially start going. Tomorrow I have an u/s to check if the medication is working. The hope is that there are no cysts. There is also concern as I have been having abdominal pain with the last 2 injections. However I have been lucky in a way. They were sure that I was going to have to do hormone therapy along with the injections to manage the side effects. However, I have been able to complete the last 3 injections with no side effects. It kinda worries me that something is wrong since I'm suppose to have side effects. I am beyond happy that I only have 2 more to go because it bring me hope of the future that in 3 short months we can continue to attempt to build our family. Plus the price of the medication as tripled since the last injection.

I continue to pray to God that he will continue to give me the strength I need for the hope of tomorrow and faith for the future. I will be praying that next year will bring new hopes and dreams. I am praying that my faith with God will continue to grow.

One of favorite movies is facing the giants as it reminds me of what faith can do. One question that the husband asks is wife is "If God does not give us a child we you still love him?." It is a very heart breaking question because I believe that God has called me to care for the orphans of the world.

In the last year my faith has grow with God beyond more than I ever of dreamed of. If you know me the things that I hate worst of all is reading and writing. In the last year I have read more books then I have since I finished school. The current books I'm starting to read is "The Strength of Mercy" by Jan Beazely and "The One Year Bible."

It's amazing how much our lives can change in one year.

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