Time is flying...

Two weeks from tomorrow we will be loading up the moving truck. Time is going so fast. This weekend we are hosting another adoption fundraiser/Yard Sale. Last time we made over $1000 were hoping to beat that.
This past week.....
We packed and packed
We searched high and low for boxes... and still need more
Packed for us and our dogs for our trip to South Dakota
My best friend got married to an amazing man. She was gorgeous

The Bride and Groom

The Wedding Party

Driving down hwy 12 which goes from Lewiston, ID to Mossula, MT reminds me how wonderful God is and how pretty God made this world....pst...my GPS clocked me going 174 mgh in my swagger wagon. (Anyone who know's hwy 12 know's that this is not possible ;) Your lucky to go 60 for more than .002 of a mile before having to slow down to 35 again. This is a 200 mile stretch that takes about 4-5 hours to get through. It is amazing tho. This time I saw my first mouse in there. It was right along the road.

Taken at 5 AM

And the packing....

Accepted

We couldn't have came home from vacation to a more beautiful letter in the mail.

We have been Accepted. We payed our money to save our spot for our adoption class in mid October.

Accepting God

This past week in church they talked about accepting God into our life. I grew up going to church and then we stopped going for quit some time. After I meet my husband I started to go to church with him. I liked going to church but I just didn't really feel like giving God my whole heart. After having a miscarriage I was really doubting Gods plans. It wasn't until after the second miscarriage that I started believing that God does have a plan for me and how can I not love the man with all my heart and my soul if he is the one caring for my sweet babies. It was then that I decided that I was going to listen to him and study his word but I hadden't truly let him in to my heart. It wasn't until the first mothers day at our current church when I changed my mind and decided to dedicate my life to him.
On mother's day our church ask the mothers to stand up. I had every dream that the first mother's day after being married that I would be expecting. That first mothers day hit so hard. When all the mother's around me started standing up I felt so lost and confused. I so badly wanted to be able to stand up proudly as a mother. I kept telling myself I'm not a mother so I don't get to stand up. I prayed that day that I next year I would get to stand up because I would have a baby on the way or in my arms. If I stood up people won't understand why because they didn't know I had two babies in heaven. Am I really a mom if I only have babies in heaven. I couldn't take it anymore that day as I hear everyone saying happy mother's day to everyone. I just wanted to run and hide because I so badly wanted to be a mother. It wasn't until I sat at home crying for hours after church that I let God into my heart. To this day I only wish I would of done it sooner. I am deeply dreading leaving our church because it's Home to me. If it weren't for them I can't say that I would of ever let God into my heart, life and soul. Every year on Mother's Day its so hard on my heart. I always thought and dreamed that I would be able to stand up in our church on Mother's Day and now that dream is gone and will never happen. Its hard to let go of that dream. I know there will be a new church but it won't be the same. I don't know that another church will have as big as impact on my life as this one did.

Letter

Today we revived the official letter from the adoption agency that our papers are being processed!!!!!!!!
sorry its short but my sinus infection has the best of me.

One Month

In one month we will be loading our truck up to travel on our new journey. I'm really so excited because when we get down there we can work on starting our home study once we find a place to live. I have lots of people asking us why we are moving...While there is 2 reasons. #1 my hubby needs a full time job as he's current job is seasonal and part time. #2 we are chasing our long awaited dream of adoption.

Its so hard sitting here doing nothing to start our family when we want a family of our own so badly. Since we finished our last injection of famera back so long ago. It really hasn't been more than a few months. I honestly can't even remember right now. That's how much the idea of hope to have our own is out of my mind. We haven't even cycled since then we started the injections last year. So I'm sure my body is so off kilter it doesn't even know what it is suppose to do so it's beyond hopeless. I can't say them we might not ever try again with fertility treatments but at this time I don't feel lead by God that this is the way to go and with my current back injury it would be a bad thing if I got pregnant.

I'm so EXCITED I JUST CAN'T HIDE IT......The adoption agency received our paperwork that we mailed off last week :)
Now just waiting for the next step of the way......